Chapter 2 — First Steps into Corruption
It is a hot day again. The air feels heavy, almost still. From the open window comes the sound of a fly trapped against the glass, and the distant call of a train. The lane below lies half asleep under the glare of the sun.
Lata pours water over herself, slow, unhurried. The water is not cold, only less warm than her skin. It runs down her back, over her hips, pooling near her feet before finding the small hole in the floor. Her hands move without thought—one rubbing soap across her belly, the other drifting lower. The touch sparks a familiar heat, sharp and sudden. Her fingers circle, press, find the rhythm. It’s become routine these past days, like breathing or blinking. She doesn’t question why anymore; the need is just *there*, coiled low and insistent.
Her eyes drift shut as her head tips back against the damp wall. But then—a prickling sensation crawls up her neck. Like fingers brushing her spine. She freezes, fingers still buried deep. The tin door to Bholu’s side rattles softly. Just a breeze? Or… She stares at the thin gap beneath the door. Just day light. Silence. Yet the feeling persists—a heavy, watching stillness. Her breath catches. She doesn’t stop. Instead, she presses harder against herself, a flush spreading across her chest. *Let him watch*, a reckless voice whispers in her mind. *Let them all watch.* The thought sends a fresh jolt through her, mingling shame with a dizzying thrill.
The heat lingers long after she’s dried and wrapped her worn sari. It pulses beneath her skin, a low hum. She eats leftover rice without tasting it, her gaze fixed on the narrow window overlooking the lane. Ushman’s shop sign swings lazily in the distance. Her feet move before her mind catches up. Down the creaking stairs, past Sunil’s darkened pharmacy window, the smell of antiseptic sharp in her nose. The lane is empty, the shops shuttered. Only the tailor’s door stands ajar.
Inside, Ushman looks up from his sewing machine, a slow smile spreading. "Bhabhi ji," he drawls, eyes sweeping her from damp hair to bare feet. "Trouble with the blouse again?" His tone is syrup-thick, knowing. Lata pulls the garment from her bag, fingers trembling slightly as she unfolds it. "The neck gapes," she says, voice tight. "And here—" she points beneath her arm—"it bites into the skin." She doesn't mention how the fabric strained across her breasts yesterday, pulling seams taut.
Ushman takes the blouse, his knuckles brushing hers deliberately. "Ah, Bhabhi ji," he sighs, shaking his head. He holds the garment up against her silhouette without touching her. "See? It's not the stitching. Your... fullness... has grown." His gaze lingers pointedly on her chest. "Raghu Bhai feeding you too well? Or maybe," he leans closer, dropping his voice, "you're eating too many sweets alone?" A chuckle rumbles low in his throat. "If you were mine, I'd measure you daily. Keep you trim." He snaps the fabric sharply. "Maybe put you on a diet. Spank those hips if they got greedy."
Lata feels the flush deepen, crawling up her neck. Instead of recoiling, she tilts her chin, a small, defiant smile playing on her lips. "Oh? Do not talk rubiish, Ushman Bhai," she counters, her voice surprisingly steady despite the tremor in her hands. "My fullness is same as always. Maybe *your* stitching hands are getting lazy?" She taps the fabric near her hipbone. "Measure properly today. Do not make excuses." Her words carry a lightness, almost playful, yet the underlying challenge hangs thick in the humid air. It isn't a scold; it feels like bait thrown deliberately.
Ushman’s grin widens, predatory. "Challenge accepted, Bhabhi ji," he murmurs, his voice dropping to a low, intimate rumble. He steps closer, the scent of cheap aftershave and machine oil enveloping her. His fingers, rough from handling fabric, brush against the thin cotton of her sari blouse as he pulls out his measuring tape. Starting at her shoulder, he runs the cool tape down her arm, his knuckles grazing the side of her breast deliberately. Lata doesn’t flinch. She holds her breath, feeling the heat bloom precisely where his hand brushed. His touch isn't clinical; it’s slow, lingering, tracing the curve of her waist with unnecessary thoroughness. "See?" he whispers, leaning in. His breath is warm on her ear. "Waist still tight? Or just wanting attention?" His thumb presses firmly into the dip above her hipbone, circling slowly.
The tape snakes around her hips. Ushman stands behind her now, his chest almost pressing against her back. He pulls the tape snug, his hands lingering on her stomach, fingers splayed possessively low. One hand drifts upwards, sliding beneath the loose fabric of her blouse to rest flat against the bare skin of her lower back, warm and heavy. The other hand keeps the tape taut across her hips, pulling her subtly against him. Lata feels the hard ridge of his arousal press against her backside through the thin layers of cloth. A low moan escapes her lips before she can stifle it. Her head falls back slightly against his shoulder. She doesn't pull away. Her body arches instinctively into the contact, craving the pressure, the friction, the undeniable proof of his desire. Her mind is a haze of heat and surrender, the shame a distant echo drowned out by the roaring pulse between her legs. His fingers dig deeper into her flesh, possessive and claiming.
The sharp rap on the shop's wooden frame cracks the thick silence like gunfire. Ushman jerks back instantly, the measuring tape snapping loose. Lata stumbles forward, gasping, her face burning crimson. A portly man in a grease-stained shirt stands in the doorway, clutching torn trousers. Ushman smooths his own shirt, his charming facade instantly reassembled. "Ah, Ramlal! Come, come!" he booms, stepping away from Lata as if she were merely a mannequin. "Bhabhi ji," he adds dismissively, not meeting her eyes, "we finish later, yes? When I have time." He gestures vaguely towards the door. Humiliation floods Lata, hot and prickly, replacing the molten arousal. She grabs her blouse, crumpling it in her fist, and flees without a word, the tailor's cheerful banter with the customer chasing her down the dusty lane.
Back in her stifling room, the scent of cheap soap and her own lingering arousal hung heavy. The encounter with Ushman replayed in jagged fragments – the deliberate brush of his knuckles, the possessive grip on her hip, the hard press of him against her backside, the abrupt, shameful dismissal. Shame warred violently with the persistent, throbbing heat low in her belly. She sank onto the thin mattress, the worn wood frame groaning. Her fingers, seemingly moving of their own accord, traced the damp edge of her sari blouse where Ushman’s thumb had pressed into her hipbone. A tremor ran through her. The defiance she’d shown in the shop dissolved, replaced by a raw, aching emptiness. She didn't consciously decide; her hand just slid beneath the thin cotton, palm flattening against the smooth skin of her stomach, then rising slowly, deliberately, to cup the heavy swell of her breast. Her thumb found her nipple, already stiffened, and circled it through the fabric. A low whimper escaped her lips.
Her other hand slipped beneath the waistband of her petticoat, fingers seeking the wet heat pooling between her legs. She arched her back, pressing her hips down against her own touch. The image wasn't Ushman’s smirking face anymore; it was the *sensation* – the cool slide of the measuring tape, the rough warmth of his hands, the shocking hardness pressed against her. Her fingers moved urgently, mimicking the pressure and rhythm she craved. A low moan escaped her parted lips, echoing softly in the hot, silent room.
From outside her room, pressed against the splintered wood of the doorframe where the latch hadn't fully caught, Bholu watched. His breath came shallow and rapid, fogging the tiny gap he'd discovered days ago. He saw Lata Aunty sprawled on the thin mattress, her worn sari blouse pushed up, exposing the heavy curve of one breast, dusky nipple taut beneath her circling thumb. Her other hand moved urgently beneath her petticoat waistband, hips lifting rhythmically off the mattress. The afternoon light, filtered through the dirty window, caught the sweat-slicked hollow of her throat, the desperate arch of her back, the way her damp hair clung to her flushed cheeks. He saw the raw hunger twisting her face, so different from her usual quiet reserve – a wildness he’d never imagined lurking beneath her tired eyes and faded clothes. He saw the swell of her hips straining against the thin cotton, the desperate clutch of her fingers on her own skin, the sheer, overwhelming *need* radiating from her trembling body. It wasn't just looking; it was absorbing her, the heat, the movement, the unspoken ache that mirrored his own frantic pulse beneath his loose pants.
Inside, Lata gasped, fingers working faster. The image wasn't Ushman anymore, but the phantom *feel* of him – the rough calluses scraping her skin, the possessive grip on her hipbone, the hard ridge pressing against her backside. Her climax built like a train whistle growing louder, drowning out the distant rumble of the actual trains. She bit her lip hard, stifling a cry, her body convulsing in sharp, silent jerks against her own hand, the mattress springs shrieking softly beneath her. Afterwards, she lay spent, breathing ragged, staring at the cracked ceiling plaster. The shame was a dull throb now, secondary to the profound exhaustion and the persistent, low hum of arousal that refused to fade completely. Why did her body feel like this? Like an open wound, hungry and exposed? She pulled her blouse down, the cheap cotton sticking to her damp skin.
Bholu jerked back from the doorframe, heart hammering against his ribs like a trapped bird. He scrambled silently back to his own room, the image of Lata Aunty’s climax burned onto his eyelids. He leaned against his own flimsy door, gulping air. The scent of her sweat, the sound of the mattress, the sheer abandon – it was more potent than any fantasy. He fumbled urgently with his own pants, rough hands mimicking the frantic motion he’d witnessed. His own release was quick, messy, and left him trembling with a mixture of exhilaration and lust. He wiped his hand on his dusty pants, listening intently for any sound from her room. Silence. Only the distant clang of metal from Lalaji’s storeroom echoed his frantic heartbeat.
Time crawled like spilled syrup. Lata lay unmoving, the sweat cooling on her skin. She listened to the rhythm of the lane below – the fading shouts of vendors, the creak of a rickshaw, the distant, mournful whistle of a train. The sun dipped lower, painting the peeling walls of her room in long, amber stripes. The lingering heat in her body felt different now – less frantic, more like a deep, persistent thrumming beneath her skin, an insistent hum she couldn’t silence. She pushed herself up, smoothing her sari with hands that felt detached. The blouse Ushman had measured lay crumpled on the floor; she kicked it aside. Her reflection in the small, cracked mirror showed flushed cheeks and eyes dark with a confusion she couldn't name. She splashed tepid water on her face, the droplets tracing paths down her neck, failing to cool the inner fire.
Adjusting her sari pallu to cover less of her chest – the thin cotton felt suffocating – Lata stepped out onto the narrow balcony overlooking the lane. The fading light softened the grime, casting long shadows. The air was thick with dust and the smell of cooking fires. She leaned against the rusty railing, seeking a breeze that didn't come. That’s when she saw him. Bholu emerged from the gloom at the end of the balcony, carrying an empty coal sack towards Lalaji’s storeroom stairs. He froze when he saw her, his eyes instantly darting down her body, lingering on the exposed curve of her collarbone, the swell of her breasts beneath the thin fabric. A familiar, sly grin spread across his face, sharpened by the knowledge of what he’d witnessed.
"Busy afternoon, Aunty?" Bholu asked, his voice deliberately loud enough to carry over the lane’s quiet hum. He shifted the sack, his gaze unwavering, tracing the outline of her hips. "Resting after… your exercise?" The innuendo hung thick in the air. "Looking hot and bothered," he added, stepping closer. The scent of coal dust and cheap soap clung to him. "Maybe Raghu Uncle should come home more often? Or," he leaned against the railing beside her, his shoulder brushing hers, "maybe you're eating too much ghee? Getting soft here?" He gestured vaguely towards her waistline, his grin widening. "Fat aunty needs to walk more, no?"
Lata felt the familiar flush rise, but this time it mingled with a strange defiance. She laughed, a sharp, brittle sound. "Kamina Bholu, stop talking nonsense!" she shot back, shoving his shoulder lightly. "My waist is fine. Maybe you need a glasses? Or," she paused, lowering her voice slightly, "maybe you spend too much time peeking at girls instead of working?" Her own boldness surprised her – the words tasted like stolen candy, sharp and sweet. Bholu’s eyes widened, then narrowed, his grin turning predatory. He leaned in closer, his coal-dust scent sharpening. "Peeking? At who, Aunty? At fat aunties who shake when they walk?" His gaze deliberately dropped to her chest, lingering. "Or maybe at aunties whose blouses get too tight?"
Before she could retort, his hand darted out – not roughly, but with a sudden, playful pinch on her hip, fingers digging briefly into the soft flesh above her waistband. It was fleeting, a fraction of a second, but the jolt of sensation was electric, sending a spark straight down her spine. Lata gasped, more shocked than pained, her hand instinctively flying to the spot. Bholu instantly jerked back, his bravado evaporating, replaced by a flicker of genuine fear. "J-just joking, Aunty!" he stammered, taking a hurried step away towards the storeroom stairs. The sly grin was gone, replaced by flushed cheeks and eyes darting nervously towards Lalaji's closed office door. "Lalaji calls," he mumbled, the excuse thin and rushed. "Late delivery... coal sacks... heavy work all night." He hoisted the empty sack higher onto his shoulder, a flimsy shield. "Later, Aunty." He practically scrambled down the stairs, disappearing into the dimly lit alleyway below without a backward glance.
The brief contact lingered on her skin like a brand. Lata leaned heavily against the rusty railing, her breath shallow. The defiance sparked by his crude teasing had vanished, swallowed by the sudden, sharp reminder of her vulnerability and the persistent hum beneath her skin. Darkness was settling fast, swallowing the lane's grimy details. The familiar pull, stronger than hunger, tugged at her. It wasn't a conscious choice; her feet simply moved, carrying her down the narrow staircase past Sunil’s darkened pharmacy counter. The small "Physiotherapy Chamber" sign glowed faintly above the inner door. She pushed it open without knocking, the air inside thick with the sterile scent of disinfectant and something vaguely medicinal, masking the underlying smell of dust and damp plaster.
Sunil glanced up from a stack of pill bottles. He didn't smile, but his eyes tracked her movement with the detached precision of a physician. "Ah, Lata Ji. On time." His voice was flat, devoid of the oily charm Ushman wielded. "Sit." He gestured to the worn examination bed covered in cracked vinyl. Like the previous evenings, he produced a single yellow pill and a glass of cloudy water. "Take." Lata swallowed it without question, the bitter chalkiness coating her tongue. He didn't explain, didn't ask how she felt. For an illiterate woman like her, explanations were unnecessary clutter; the doctor knew best, and free treatment was a blessing not to be questioned.
"Lie down," Sunil commanded, already turning to a small cabinet. "Treatment starts." Lata obeyed, settling onto the cold vinyl. She pulled her sari pallu tighter across her chest, a reflex against the sterile chill. He returned, his large hands slick with a pungent, medicinal-smelling oil. Without preamble, he began kneading her shoulders through the thin cotton of her blouse. His touch was impersonal, clinical at first – strong thumbs digging into knots, palms pressing down her spine. Yet, beneath the facade of physiotherapy, a subtle shift occurred. His fingers lingered fractionally longer at the base of her neck, dipped lower towards the swell of her back. "Deep breaths," he instructed, his voice a low monotone, while his thumbs traced circles near the sensitive sides of her ribs, edging towards the curve of her breast. Lata closed her eyes, focusing on the spreading warmth of the oil and the peculiar numbness the pill induced, a fog settling over her usual sharp arousal, leaving only a heavy, drugged warmth.
The rhythmic pressure, the medicinal scent, and the drug's effect merged into a potent lullaby. Sunil’s hands moved lower, working the muscles above her waistband with firm, circular motions. He shifted position, his knee pressing against the examination bed near her hip. One hand slid firmly down her spine towards the small of her back. Then came the distinct, metallic scrape of a hook being undone. Lata registered it distantly, like a sound heard underwater. Her blouse loosened slightly at the back, the fabric gaping open just above her petticoat waistband. Sunil’s fingers, slick with oil, slid beneath the loosened fabric, pressing directly onto her bare skin just above her spine. The touch was startlingly intimate, yet his clinical detachment remained unbroken. "Must stimulate the nerve points," he murmured, almost to himself, as his fingers dug deeper into the muscles flanking her spine, moving lower, towards the dimples above her buttocks. The fog thickened, pulling her consciousness down into a deep, chemical sleep.
Consciousness returned slowly, a reluctant surfacing. Lata’s senses swam: the harsh fluorescent light overhead, the sting of disinfectant in her nose, the cool vinyl beneath her cheek. Then, sensation flooded back – a deep, rhythmic pressure low on her back. Sunil’s fingers were kneading the bare skin just above her petticoat waistband, well inside the loosened back of her blouse. His thumbs pressed firmly into the soft flesh flanking her spine, moving in slow, deliberate circles that dipped perilously close to the curve of her buttocks. She felt the heat of his palms, the slickness of the oil, the rough pads of his fingers exploring territory far beyond any nerve point. A gasp caught in her throat, instantly suppressed. She lay perfectly still, feigning sleep, her heart hammering against her ribs. Shame warred with a treacherous flicker of the familiar heat beneath the drug's haze.
"Ah, Lata Ji," Sunil’s voice cut through her panic, flat and unsurprised. His hands didn't pause. "You woke. Good. Treatment required deeper access." His fingers pressed harder, sliding lower still, grazing the top elastic of her petticoat. "The toxins lodge deep in the fatty tissues here," he stated matter-of-factly, his touch lingering possessively on the swell of her hips. "Must be worked out. Aggressively." He shifted, his knee nudging her thigh wider apart on the narrow bed. "Lie still." For Lata, the command was absolute. The doctor knew. The treatment was free. Her body, drugged and confused, betrayed her with a treacherous throb of sensation. She squeezed her eyes shut, trapped between the cold vinyl and his invasive hands, the bitter taste of the pill still coating her tongue.
He withdrew abruptly, leaving her skin chilled where the oiled warmth vanished. "Enough for tonight," Sunil announced, wiping his hands on a stained towel. He tossed a cheap cotton rag towards her. "Clean yourself. Return tomorrow." His gaze swept over her exposed back, her undone blouse gaping open, with the detached assessment of a mechanic inspecting a used part. "Progress is slow. Symptoms linger." Lata scrambled to sit up, fumbling to hook her blouse with trembling fingers. The fog lifted slightly, replaced by a sharp, little shame clarity and a deeper, insistent ache pooling low in her belly. She mumbled thanks, unable to meet his eyes, and slid off the bed. Her legs felt unsteady as she hurried towards the door, the cool night air hitting her damp skin like a slap.
The narrow lane was deserted, swallowed by heavy darkness. Lata stumbled towards the staircase, the rough concrete scraping her bare feet. Inside her room, she slammed the flimsy door shut, leaning against it, breathing hard. The lingering scent of medicinal oil clung to her skin, mingling with the metallic tang of her own arousal. Her fingers traced the spot where Sunil’s hands had pressed, the phantom pressure igniting fresh sparks.
She forced herself to eat cold roti and watery dal, the taste like ash. The humid air pressed down, thick and suffocating. She spread a thin mat on the cool wooden floor, the only relief from the heat. Her thin cotton nightgown clung to her damp skin. Closing her eyes, she tried to quiet the restless hum beneath her skin, the ache Sunil had stirred but not satisfied. Her hand drifted unconsciously to her breast, fingers circling a nipple through the thin fabric. A low groan escaped her lips as she arched into her own touch, lost in the memory of Ushman’s teasing fingers and Sunil’s invasive kneading. The sensations blurred – Ushman’s sly grin, Sunil’s detached gaze, Bholu’s coal-dusted fingers pinching her hip – feeding the hungry fire inside her.
A sharp, insistent knock shattered the heavy silence. Lata froze, hand stilled beneath her nightgown. Her heart hammered against her ribs. "Bholu?" she called out, her voice thick with sleep and arousal. Silence. Then, another knock, louder this time, impatient. "Who is it?" she demanded, scrambling to sit up, pulling her nightgown tighter. The door rattled in its frame. Raghu never knocked. Bholu would have announced himself. Sunil? Fear prickled her skin. She crept forward, her bare feet silent on the cool wood, and cautiously slid the bolt back, peering into the dim hallway light.
The door burst inward before she could fully open it, slamming against the wall. Ushman filled the doorway, smelling sharply of cheap whiskey and sweat, his eyes glittering with predatory intensity in the gloom. Before Lata could gasp or protest, his hand shot out, grabbing a fistful of her nightgown at the shoulder. He yanked her forward violently. "Ushm—" His mouth crashed down onto hers, silencing her cry. The kiss wasn't passionate; it was rough, demanding, tasting of stale tobacco and desperation. His other arm wrapped around her waist like an iron band, hauling her fully against him as he kicked the door shut behind him with his heel. The flimsy lock clicked shut, sealing them in.
Ushman spun her around, shoving her face-first against the cool wooden wall beside the door. His breath was hot and ragged against her neck. "Been thinking about you, Bhabhi Ji," he growled, his voice thick with lust and alcohol. One hand pinned her shoulder blade hard against the wood while the other ripped violently downward. The thin cotton of her nightgown tore like paper from shoulder to waist, exposing her bare back and the curve of her hip. He didn't pause. His fingers hooked into the waistband of her petticoat and underwear together, wrenching them down past her thighs to her knees in one brutal motion. Lata gasped, a sound of shock and involuntary arousal. Her exposed skin prickled against the rough wood, the sudden vulnerability igniting the drug-fuelled heat Sunil had left simmering.
He kicked her legs apart roughly, positioning himself behind her. There was no tenderness, no preamble. With a grunt, he thrust into her hard, his entry sudden and deep. Lata cried out, a muffled sound against the wall, her fingers scrambling for purchase on the smooth wood. Ushman gripped her hips tightly, his fingers digging into the soft flesh of her waist as he began a relentless, pounding rhythm. His other hand slid up her torn nightgown, roughly grabbing her breast, squeezing and kneading it painfully. He leaned forward, his teeth scraping her shoulder blade, his tongue leaving wet trails on her sweat-slicked skin. Lata’s moans grew louder, involuntary sounds ripped from her throat—pleasure with a raw mixture of shock, pain, and the drugged arousal Sunil had cultivated. She felt pinned, crushed between the unyielding wall and his urgent, demanding body.
He moved her like a ragdoll, spinning her away from the wall to face him. Ushman’s hands seized her breasts roughly, squeezing the soft flesh until she cried out, not in pain, but in a sharp, startled gasp that melted into a groan. His mouth descended, not to hers, but to her neck, biting and sucking a trail down to her collarbone, then lower. He shoved aside the torn remnants of her nightgown, exposing her nipple, and latched onto it hungrily, his tongue swirling, teeth grazing the sensitive peak. Lata arched into him, her hands clawing at his back, her moans loud and unrestrained, echoing off the cramped walls—wordless cries of pure sensation. His other hand slid down her belly, fingers plunging between her legs without preamble, finding her slick and swollen. She gasped, bucking against his touch, the friction sending sparks behind her eyelids.
He pushed her backward, not gently, and she stumbled onto the thin sleeping mat spread on the floor. Ushman followed her down, landing heavily on top of her, pinning her wrists above her head with one large hand. His free hand roamed her body possessively—kneading her breasts, pinching her nipples, tracing the curve of her waist, dipping into the hollow of her navel. His mouth followed, licking a wet path down her sternum, across her trembling belly, lower still. He buried his face between her thighs, his tongue delving deep, relentless. Lata’s back arched off the mat, her hips lifting uncontrollably. Her moans crescendoed, sharp cries punctuating the wet, rhythmic sounds filling the room. She was lost in the onslaught, her mind blank except for the raw, consuming pleasure radiating from every point he touched, licked, pressed.
His mouth left her abruptly, replaced instantly by the hard thrust of his cock. He drove into her with brutal force, pinning her hips to the mat. The pace was punishing, each deep stroke jolting her body. Ushman released her wrists, his hands instead grabbing her breasts again, squeezing and twisting as he rode her, his hips pistoning. He leaned down, biting her shoulder, her neck, her lips, his breath hot and ragged against her skin. Lata’s legs wrapped around his waist, pulling him deeper. Her cries were continuous now, high-pitched gasps and guttural moans blending with his own harsh grunts. The room smelled of sweat, sex, and cheap whiskey. There were no words, only the frantic slap of skin, the creak of the old floorboards beneath them, and the symphony of their ragged breathing and desperate sounds.
It ended as violently as it began. With a final, shuddering groan, Ushman drove deep and held himself there, pulsing inside her. Then, just as suddenly, he pulled out, leaving her exposed and trembling. He stood up without a word, adjusting his trousers, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. He glanced down at her sprawled form—naked, sweaty, skin flushed and marked, breathing heavily on the rumpled mat. His expression held no tenderness, only a fleeting satisfaction. He turned, unlocked the flimsy door, and stepped out into the dark lane, pulling it shut behind him with a soft click. Lata lay utterly still, staring at the ceiling. The humid air felt cold on her damp skin. Her mind was a numb void, her body a landscape of aches and fading tremors. She felt hollowed out, used, yet the persistent hum of arousal still pulsed low in her belly, a confusing counterpoint to her exhaustion. Sweat trickled down her temple onto the mat. She didn't move to cover herself.
Downstairs, the heavy wooden gate to the lane creaked open. Bholu trudged in, covered in coal dust from unloading sacks at Lalaji’s storage yard. His shoulders slumped with fatigue. He climbed the dim staircase, his footsteps heavy on the worn wood. As he reached the landing outside his room, he froze. Lata’s door was slightly ajar, swung open perhaps an inch by Ushman’s hurried exit. A sliver of weak light from her single bulb spilled onto the landing. Through the crack, Bholu saw her. Lata lay naked on her back on the mat, legs slightly parted, one arm flung above her head, the other resting limply on her belly. Her dark hair was tangled around her face, her chest rising and falling rapidly. The thin nightgown lay ripped beside her. Her skin glistened with sweat, catching the light on the curve of her breasts, the swell of her hips, the dark triangle between her thighs. Her eyes were open, staring blankly upwards, unfocused. She looked utterly spent, utterly exposed. Bholu’s breath caught. He stared, transfixed, his exhaustion forgotten, replaced by a sharp, electric jolt of lust.
He didn't dare move closer. He couldn't risk the floorboards creaking. He stood rooted to the spot for a long moment, drinking in the forbidden sight—the soft mounds of her breasts, the dark nipples, the smooth expanse of her belly, the shadowed intimacy between her legs. He saw the faint red marks on her shoulder, the slickness glistening on her inner thighs. His own body reacted instantly, painfully. A low groan threatened to escape his throat; he choked it back, swallowing hard. The coal dust on his skin felt suddenly gritty and suffocating. He forced himself to take one silent step backward, then another, his eyes locked on her through the inch-wide gap until he reached his own door. He slipped inside, closing it without a sound, leaning against it as his heart hammered against his ribs like a trapped bird.
Inside his cramped room, the image burned behind his eyelids—Lata Aunty, naked, used, sprawled like that. The humid air felt thick, electric. He fumbled with his trousers, his hands shaking. He didn't bother with a light. He leaned back against the cool tin wall dividing his room from hers, the rough metal pressing into his shoulder blades. Closing his eyes, he pictured her again: the curve of her hip, the swell of her breast in his imagined grasp, the way her head had been thrown back. His breath came in ragged gasps as his hand moved furiously over his aching hardness. He imagined it was his hands leaving those marks on her shoulder, his mouth on her neck, his body pinning hers to the mat. A strangled whimper escaped him as the fantasy consumed him—her soft moans, her skin slick against his, the feel of her yielding beneath him. He came violently, silently, shuddering against the wall, the sticky mess coating his hand and trousers. The silence pressed in afterward, heavy and accusing.